homecoming

this weekend was shsu homecoming. it was good because my old friends got to meet and get to know my new friends. i was super excited about it. the people that came were mr. and mrs. rine, louda, melanie, toni and robyn. 

louda took this pic. shes excellent at caputing emotion. (meeting the president of the university was pretty exciting i guess.) 

mr. rine took this picture. hes never in any pictures. always got that damn camera. his camera was in the shop however, so he was using mine. 

there is something very interesting about the way mr. rine points. no, hes not rocking out, thats just how he points. odd. notice. 

so after being in the blazing sun and all getting sunburned we finally made it over to the shade in the grass. it was awesome. we could finally have some fun and actually enjoy the game. 

at the end of the day everyone was tired. inevitably, someone had to fall asleep first. david took this pic of his friend brian. i hope he never makes it to this site. 

the day was so much fun. i had a really great time. the weather was amazing and i got the see and be with all the people i love. *yay*

although i got rather sunburned. and it hurts like hell. not only that. the bearkats lost the football game, 17 to 28. you didnt think i was going to leave this on a positive note did you??

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there seems to be tension when it comes to saying the ever so dreadful "n" word. its stupid and has no relevance to life today. its not used to describe black people, although  most think it is, it's more used to describe the shit, trash, or waste of a particular ethnic group. much like the words "cracker", "chink", or "wetback".why are people so afraid of a stupid word? this word is used in tons of great works of literature. if the world is really evolving the way it says it is, then this word should mean nothing. 

if you want to end the derogatory meaning of a word, you have to learn to not be so afraid of it. use it more often. use it in a sentence. the word "fuck" is a perfect example. 

besides. without these "scary" words, how else could poeple judge others? 

if you want a word thats meant to hurt other poeples feelings, try using a real word. 

'ingrate'

'misanthrope'

'detester' 

'garbage' 

im a white female. and im not afraid to say the word nigger.

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homecoming at shsu is very close. saturday in fact. a few of my friends and a former teacher of mine are making a road trip up to huntsville to go to the game and visit and whatnot. im very excited. i dont have a ticket yet, but im sure i'll get one soon enough. the former teacher of mine is my journalism teacher. he is probably the most influencial teacher i've ever had. he got me more interested in photography. his class was fun. his class helped shape who i am today. another thing about his class was that the people in it were the best people in the world. my best friend was in the class. another extremely influential person. i love this person. i always will. one of our favorite things to do together was take pictures. we inspired each other and always get pictures we knew we would remember forever. i havent had a picture like that since we were separated. i havent felt near as inspired as i did then. 

i seem to be getting more and more attached to my dorm/apartment. its finally homey enough for me to feel like i'm not at a hotel and it doesnt smell like foot anymore. i put up some new posters in our living room and i put together my roommates shelf so there wasn't just a cardboard box leaning against the wall.  the shelves are still empty, and the posters dont have frames, but its still a step towards normal and home. which i'm starting to miss a lot more. 

so we had our first test in political science. the teacher said that the average grade for the first test was a 58. but guess what, i got an 82!! im awesome, and i didn't study very hard. it really wasnt a very hard test actually. im going to be disappointed in my class if others did poorly. oh well. alot of people just dont come to class. thats good reason i fail i guess.

in other news, im becoming slightly obsessed with cubing. (the act of solving a rubik's cube with great speed) it's fun! plus, me and a friend are getting these awesome speed cubes. the come lubed! im such a freak. 

class has been canceled

i dont understand the point of being in a class if the teacher is never there. my english class has gotten canceled so many times this semester, were like already 3 weeks behind, (mostly because of ike.) it makes no sense. oh well.  at least now i have another week to work on my essay. 

the ants in my keyboard seem to gone away. i raided those bitches. 

on to more important things. my political science class seems to be getting me into some trouble. we're encouraged to have an opinion, only, apparently, my opinion is too strong and could offend others. why have an opinion at all if you cant voice it? whatever. maybe a cookie will make me feel better. hopefully the ants havent gotten to them yet. garg! i dont think im understanding college the way i thought i would. everything is not in the way that i think. why is it ok for teachers to ignore their class and them slam them with work that wasnt even taught because the teacher failed to mention he wasnt going to be in class that day and everyone showed up and then had to leave because he forgot? my music teacher doesnt care. my english teacher is always sick apparently, my other teachers are hard asses about attendance. wft!? 

ok. i need to recalibrate my thoughts. 

everything is better when you just do it yourself. i dont even have to go to my music class because he doesnt say anything different then the book says. why am i paying money for a class that i could have done on my own. 

this brings me back to the essay i wrote for academic decathlon: lots of people go to college and lots of people dont. college is not for everyone. many poeple choose to work for a living and aquire skills that will benefit them in a higher up job. only problem, those who went to college and may have no experience in the field of work automatically get the job first simply because they have their name written on a piece of paper that states they made it through 4 years of classes that only discussed the subject. that wonderful degree gives them the advantage. i dont think that those who worked their asses off to learn the skills they need to work should be punished for not going to college. again, college is not for everyone. the point is, a college degree shouldnt always be the deciding factor in who gets the job. qualification should still be a requirement, yes. but why disreguard those who have experience? im rambling now. im aware. it comes down to book smarts against street smarts i guess. im all for both. considering im in college. 

anywho. its picture time! 

here i was just a few moments ago.

shopping for underwear

so today, i found myself in a place i dont usually go. victoria's secret. i had some coupon that they sent me in the mail for my birthday. it was a really good deal. i got a pair of undies and a bra for 20 dollars. amazing! upon exiting the store, i found myself stuck between a rock and a harder rock. tomorrow, which is actually today, is my two year annivarsary with raymond. (there are ants in my keyboard.) im very happy about it except that we couldn't be together on the actual day. i miss him a lot. oh well. anyway. the rock turned out the be the money i just spend on underwear, and the harder rock was the way i've handled my first couple months of college. why was i shopping when i had more then one assignment due before 8 oclock the next morning. *big sigh* once again, oh well. 

...freaking ants...

moving on. so as of late i've taken up the hobby of rubiks cube solving. my friend taught me how to do it and i caught on rather quickly. i havent timed myself yet but i know it's son to come. 

i'll have that time posted asap. i love my cube! it makes me feel like i'm worth something because no matter how i treat it, or which way i turn it, it will always find a way to make itself right again. it makes me smile. 

yuh, that's the one.  

today was productive. i love! my new bra. so much support. 

n00b

that's much of what i am to this. im looking for way to do things for myself other then on myspace or facebook. if you made it here, you're either lucky or extremely unfortunate. im sorry. 

so nothing much interested me today. i am currently back in my hometown for the weekend. college is proving itself worthy of my time. i love it there. my new friend is amazing. 

because this is a first post, it's not going to be filled with very much, so this will probably be it.